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For those of you who do not yet know, I recently lost my middle son, Conan, to a rare type of pediatric cancer called Ewing’s Sarcoma… and though I am typically a very private person, I would like to share with you a small window of Conan’s life to honor who he was.

In Loving Memory, My Son, Conan…

New Doc 2018 08 01 30 1 - ConanConan was was placed in my arms on March, 23, 1995. He was a sweet baby, full of energy and mischief. He hated naps, and often crawled out of his crib to play once the door was closed. He loved soft blankets and stuffed toys, often times cuddling them to his face.

He would always state obvious things like “When it’s daytime the sky is blue! Right Dad?” These little sayings, or “Conanisms” always ended with “Right Dad?”, and my response was always “That’s right!”

He loved being read to, and his favorite children’s book was Fox in Socks. I read it to him hundreds of times, and I think that this is one of the main reasons, he loved to read as he grew older.

I taught him how to walk, tie his shoes, get dressed, read, appreciate classical music, swim and dive, ride his bike, play basketball, hunt for “dragon eggs”, skip rocks, fish, treat a lady, and so much more.

Conan was the kind of guy who would give you the shirt off his back, if he thought you were cold. He would always share whatever he had with his brothers. Simply put, he was such a sweet and loving son, brother, friend…person.

As kids do, Conan grew up. He graduated high school, went to college for a while, and decided to follow in my foot steps. He joined the United States Air Force, and trained in security forces before being stationed at Vandenberg AFB in California.

He was a strapping young man, and aside from his service to our country, he regularly participated in Spartan Races. It was after a race that he experienced pain in his hip.

About two and a half years ago, I received a phone call from him in the hospital after he had a severe bout of hip pain. He was diagnosed with a Ewing’s Sarcoma. The tumor was very large, and there was suspicion even, then that it had metastasized into his lungs.

Conan and Sarah - ConanConan spent two and a half years battling this cancer. It was during this battle that he was able to meet the love of his life, Sarah. As a father, I feel so blessed that he was able to experience the true love of a woman. I feel so blessed that even though I lost a son, I gained a daughter.

…that even in tragic times, a happy love story could happen, is the greatest gift in life he could have received.

Conan died in my arms on July, 30th at 5:22 am. I felt his spirit leave his body, but I will never forget those last few hours of his life as I held him to me. He was surrounded by the people who loved him the most, and I can only hope that he found peace and solace in knowing that he was loved so much by those present.

I know that Conan is in a better place now. I know that he is no longer wracked by pain, and struggling to get a breath, but even in knowing these things, it doesn’t ease the pain of his loss.

It doesn’t ease the overwhelming sense of loss, grief, anger, confusion, and sadness. A piece of me is gone forever in his loss.

I know that he is still with me in spirit, but I will never be able to hear his voice, touch his hand, or watch him grow as a man. I won’t be able to see him raise children, get a promotion, buy his first house, or do any of those things that a father looks forward to seeing happen for his son.

These are the thoughts that keep me awake at night. These are the thoughts that weigh heavy on my heart.

I would ask that if you see me, please don’t ask me if I am OK or how I am doing. I honestly don’t want to talk about it. I don’t want to have the “small talk”, and I don’t want to lie to anyone, or burden you with my grief.

I do ask that you keep my family and I in your thoughts and prayers.

Dr. Osborne – The Gluten Free warrior

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137 responses on “Conan

  1. Andrea says:

    Oh my gosh, what anguish you must have experienced. I can’t begin to imagine your pain. Thank you for sharing your son with us. You will be in my thoughts.

    • Isabel Alder says:

      I’m so sorry to learn of this but thank you for sharing this incredibly awful/ “heart wrenching” story w/ us Dr. Osborne. Please know that you & your family are in our most treasured & uplifting thoughts & prayer’s!

    • Isabel Alder says:

      I’m so sorry to learn of this but thank you for sharing this incredibly awful/ “heart wrenching” story w/ us Dr. Osborne. Please know that you & your family are in our most treasured & uplifting thoughts & prayer’s!

  2. Michael says:

    I grieve for you sir! May God ease your pain and loss!

  3. N says:

    Sending you and your family a large, supportive hug! Thank you so much for sharing with us.

  4. eileen sullivan says:

    ❤️🙏🏻💜

  5. Kerri says:

    Thanks for sharing the love, Dr. O. May it come full circle.

  6. Carmela Glasgow says:

    So sorry for your loss. My prayers go out to you and your family.

  7. MarciaJohnson says:

    I am amazed, Dr Osborne, that you can write so poignantly at a time like this. What an honor to your son’s life. We continue to lift you and your family up in prayer to the only One who can truly comfort.

  8. Cynthia Mehaffey says:

    I just received word my father died the night before Conan passed. I couldn’t cry until hearing this. It’s so wrong that our children should die before us. My prayers are with you and your family as is my heart. Rest assured that God wants to bring him back more than you even do for he even knew the number of hairs on his head. Job 14:14 May you be comforted and soothes by those who love you (there are so many.), but especially by the fact that you will see him again in perfection in the life that is to come.

  9. Pat Shelly says:

    Thanks for sharing. He had a wonderful life. So sorry his was cut short.

  10. Mary Stec says:

    Dr. Osborne & family, I am so sorry for your terrible loss of Conan. Thank you for sharing this beautiful tribute to your son.

  11. Kimberly tien says:

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. May you all be surrounded with love and peace💝

  12. Kathy says:

    My heartfelt condolences to you and your family. You are all in my prayers.

  13. Shirley G Seydel says:

    Thank you for sharing. My thoughts are with you.

  14. J C Freese says:

    The candle is burning here for you, each tear will turn into a beautiful flower of memory in your hearts. Your loss becomes everyone’s loss as we have all felt this grief too. Take good care. Thank you, for your honesty touches others in deep ways.

  15. Frances Gallaher says:

    You and your family have my prayers. May God provide the strenght for each and every minute. Your words are full of abounding love! Thank you for sharing!

  16. Kathy says:

    My heartfelt condolences to you and your family. You, your family and Conan are all in my prayers.

  17. Cindy says:

    Grief is the price we pay for love. May God comfort your family during this season of your life.

  18. Lynette ranger says:

    May God’s draw you and your family close as His peace fills you. So sorry for your loss.

  19. Sj navage says:

    Such a beautiful tribute to such a special piece of your life. Thank you for sharing. He is such a handsome son. My thoughts are with you and your family as you learn each day how to move forward.

  20. Rebekah Stump says:

    Even though we’ve never been properly introduced, my heart is truly pained for you and your family. No words can suffice here, but I pray that somehow, some way, you and your family will feel the prayers over you all and be filled with an ocean of grace and support to help you process the loss. I pray those around you would somehow know what you need without being asked (space, food, time) and that you would allow yourself to take the time you need for you and for your family. That’s most important and we all support you in whatever you need. My sincerest condolences.

  21. Paula Downs says:

    Dr. Osborne, I am in tears for the horrible hurt you have suffered, truly the worst thing that can happen to a person. I pray that the Lord Jesus continually sends comfort and love to you and your family and assures you in a special way that Conan is now in His loving arms forever. You are in my prayers always.

  22. Joyce says:

    So so sad. I appreciate your sharing this. Sending love.

  23. Betty Hilton says:

    II am praying for you and your family. May God comfort you as only He can. I would have liked to have known your son. Thank you for sharing him with us.

  24. Michael J Gonzalez says:

    Dear Dr Osborne please accept a big hug from the deep of my heart…I would like to make you familiar with my work…my email is michael.gonzalez5@upr.edu I woukld like to send you some of my articles…

  25. Karen says:

    So very sorry to learn of this news. Praying for you and all of Conan’s family and friends.

  26. Nicole Gavrel Kotz says:

    Thank you for sharing your loss of Conan and letting us get to know him through your post.

    May God Bless your family.

    My condolences to all of you.

    Prayers forthcoming.

  27. Travis says:

    So sorry to hear your Sad news about your. Life doesn’t seem fair sometimes. Even though we have never met, the story brings tears to my eyes. It seems Cancer is taking so many people, 1 in 2 men, and 1 in 3 woman, it has become Epidemic . Our Planet is so sick, the air, water, soil and the people. Where are we going to end up if this course of sickness continues on the planet. I got involved in studying Nutrition and Health and Wealth about 4 years ago, when i had a heart breaking story of “mistakenly” euthanizing one of my dogs because of my lack of knowledge and relied on the corporate medicine of modern Man. I have been following and listening to people like yourself and the great work you are doing. Please don’t lose the will to continue to fight for us and others. Continue to expose the “lies” and “untruths” that modern Medicine is telling. I firmly believe as a Spiritual person that the Almighty Creator will get you to see your son again someday. The is a great thought to hang too. Always focus on the things that your son did and brought you happiness. Those happy thoughts helps us get out of the Sad thoughts. God Bless Travis Faulkner, Newfoundland, Canada

  28. Marie says:

    Thank you for sharing Conan with all of us through your eloquent letter. Your son seems to have lived a beautiful full life in the short time he was given. Remember what he managed to do and how well he did it and not what he missed. Please be kind to yourself and take as long as you need to grieve. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and you family. You are not alone.

    • Lori says:

      Our prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time. God bless!

    • Ronna Berezin says:

      So sorry for your loss and wishing you peace from knowing that you contributed to the life he had much love, companionship, friendship, and good times that he had.

      • Wendy Legere says:

        Dear Dr. Osborne, I just read your loving tribute to your son, Conan it brought tears to my eyes. May God bless you and your family with the strength and courage to carry on during this challenging and difficult time until you meet again. My deepest condolences. May you mourn in peace and may your memories of him be cherished.

  29. Todd Crosswhite says:

    My goodness, I had no idea. Thank you for sharing that story as difficult as it is to tell. I’m about to have my first child, a boy, in October, so I can only imagine the love and the loss you feel.
    Prayers your way, Dr. Peter.

  30. Tina says:

    You are brave.

  31. Gina GUILBEAULT says:

    Dear Dr. Osborne and family,
    God Bless you all during this extremely difficult time. Conan sounded like he was an angel on earth.
    Thank you for sharing his beautiful life and story. Your family is in our thoughts and prayers. Wishing you peace, strength and comfort.

  32. Melissa says:

    I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing his story. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

  33. Anita says:

    I was in tears reading this post. I have two boys and awhile back we went through a serious health scare for one of them. We got lucky, but it really changes you once you understand just how fragile, short, and unpredictable life can be. Thank you for sharing your son’s story and for all that you to do to help others. ❤️

  34. Lori Young says:

    Our prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time.

  35. Thank you so much for sharing. Praying for peace, comfort and courage for you and your family.

  36. Maggie says:

    My thoughts & prayers are with you.

  37. LizCat says:

    You were a gift to each other…….lOVE IS ALL THERE IS………The Love goes on……..

  38. Amy Leibman says:

    My heart breaks for you and your family. Prayers for you all during what must be unbearable to endure. I pray for your strength and peace to get through it and feel the love your son leaves you with.

  39. Carol Jones says:

    There is nothing harder than to lose a child God’s blessings for you and your family Thank God for allowing him to be with you for as long as he was there

  40. Xiomara Goodman says:

    I am
    So
    Sorry for
    Your loss. May God bless you and your family

  41. L says:

    There are no words…as ur son went to be with The Lord…You will see Conan on day in heaven. He is still alive just not here on earth. With you in spirit..Step by step with Him .. prayers for you and your family..

  42. Amelia Bhide says:

    Our deepest condolences to you and your family. My heart aches for you all. I can only imagine the pain you must be feeling.

  43. Robert DeCarlo says:

    WOW! Thak you for sharing Dr. O, Praying that yhour greif will be short and that one day you and your brave don will be reunited in the Kingdom of GOD. I would also like to thank you for all of the great information you avve passsed on to your subscribers for all these years.

  44. Heather says:

    Dr. Osborne, though the separation seems shattering, he is not gone. He will be with you. Try to feel him. And you will see and embrace him again when it’s your turn to go.

  45. Elizabeth Brewer says:

    You have been so very fortunate to share the time and energy you had with Conan. He looked like a healthy, energetic child. one with whom you shared many profound experiences. Regretting the things you will not share will only lead you into bitterness and more grief. Being grateful for what you had and still have will lead you to healing. Thank you for sharing this segment of your life with us. My thoughts and blessings are extended to you and your family in this most wrenching experience.

  46. Suzanne says:

    Thank you for sharing your son with us. He sounds like a wonderful young man. You and your family are in our prayers.

  47. Susan Williams says:

    So sorry for your loss. You are in my prayers as well as the rest of the family. God did not create us to deal with death, therefore it is an extremely difficult experuenc especially when it is a child. We all do not want our children to die before us. Please know that God is fully aware of your pain and he is the God of all comfort and he is there to give you comfort in order to cope with the pain (2 Corinthians 1:3,4).

  48. Donna Newell says:

    Thank you, Dr. Osborne, for opening up and sharing your heart and your pain and grief over your heartbreaking loss! I can’t even imagine losing a son! Conan was obviously a wonderful young man, and well-loved, and I’m glad that you shared memories of him with us. Similar to the health support groups that I’ve been in, I hope that sharing your pain helps you know that you are not alone and that there are so many others who care and can relate in some way and give you support, encouragement, love and prayers. You have a whole community of people who are mourning with you and praying for you, and of course not just for you but for your whole family. I’m praying for you to feel God’s comforting presence and peace even through this terrible storm and through the anger and grief and healing. Much love to you and your sweet family! So sorry!!!

  49. Marygrace Almleaf says:

    Sending comfort and love to you and your beautiful family. 🙏💗

  50. Lorraine Weeks says:

    Dr.Osborn, So sorry you have experienced the loss of your son, Conan. Thank you for sharing your personal story of life with Conan and what a wonderful person he was. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
    I hope that in some way,sharing your loss online will help you.
    Many blessings to you and your family.
    Lorraine from NH

  51. Dar says:

    My heart goes out to you & your family. I lost a son & it’s a void that remains forever. Prayers to all.

  52. Olan A says:

    Conan lives eternally with the Lord and Saviour. Shalom shalom.

  53. Pam Simac says:

    My deepest sympathy to you and your family and prayers that you find comfort in the beautiful memories of Conan until you are joined again for eternity. God bless you!

  54. mindy says:

    This is a tragic and irreplaceable loss. To imagine a life such as Conan’s to be gone from physical presence is unimaginable, and even the precious bits I know from your sharing, cannot fade. A beautiful boy/man and life. Thanks for trusting us enough to share this with us. This touches and inspires me to see such beautiful fathering, such a loving family, and romance amidst difficulties. The photos of him along with your words paint a deeply moving tribute and memorial. held in love.

  55. Donna says:

    I am so sorry for the loss of your precious son. Sending condolences to your family, love, and a big (((HUG))).

  56. Marty says:

    Bless you and your family, and may your wonderful memories ease your pain.

  57. JC says:

    Prayers go out to you and your family Dr. O!

  58. Jane says:

    What a beautiful tribute to honor your son.. My eyes are full of tears and my heart is full of prayers for your family. May Gods peace be with you.

  59. CIDALIAGAPRISIDE says:

    Dr Osborne and family my thoughts and prayers are with you all at this sad time

  60. Estephania LeBaron says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss.

  61. Rina says:

    Thanks for opening your heart and sharing your thoughts and feeling with us, the unknown people on the other side of the screen.
    Sending you a virtual big hug.

    May the love and the positive energy from the universe will help you and your family heal your soul.

  62. Rina says:

    Thanks for opening your heart and sharing your thoughts and feeling with us, the unknown people on the other side of the screen.
    Sending you a virtual big hug.

    May the love and the positive energy from the universe will help you and your family to heal your soul.

  63. C.J. says:

    Dear Dr. Osborne and family,

    I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your loving son, Conan. Know that there is a candle lit tonight in Norway and that I am praying for him and for my sister (who is also on the other side) to help assist his spirit in the afterlife. May he always be in your hearts, until that wonderful day your souls meet again.

  64. Asia says:

    Thank you for sharing. May we all know we are loved before our time on earth is over. I’m so happy he was, and still is! May this love continue to guide his soul, and may he be able to continue to touch yours, and all those he loved, in a million beautiful and silent ways…

  65. Anne says:

    Loss of a beautiful child is painful and unrelenting, but knowing he had a wonderful life full of good things and love is the most important thing for you all to remember. He’s in a better place now without pain, a place we will all be some day . So keep talking to Conan, keep sharing and including him in everyday things as his spirit is still with you . My warmest wishes are with you all.

  66. Kathleen says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss. Such a beautiful young man. I’m a grief specialist and I know there are no words for this deep pain. May you be surrounded by the love of others.

  67. Vera says:

    You have our heartfelt sympathy having experienced the death of a son when he was only 22 years old , the victim of receiving contaminated blood. The heartache is physical as well as emotional!! We will be thinking of you as you face the lonesome adjustment of life without him in the days, weeks and months ahead.

  68. natasha says:

    I am so sorry for your loss. Keeping you and your family in our family’s thoughts and prayers.

  69. Ronnie says:

    Dr. Osborne, I am so sorry to hear about Conan. You and your family are in my prayers as you continue to grieve. May God bless you and give you grace for each and every day. May the LORD lift up his countenance upon you, and give you peace. Number 6:26

  70. Marie Batson says:

    Dr. O. Words are not enuff to express the sadness I feel for you and your family. Your tribute certainly shows how much love Conan received and gave during his short life. I too just lost a dear friend of seventy years so grief is fresh to me as well. My prayers go up to you for courage and strength but mostly the comfort that will come from our Savior. May you continue to bless others with your knowledge and compassion.
    Thank you for sharing the life of your loved one.

  71. Dorella says:

    My Heart goes out to you and your family. I hope you can feel the energy of love and light being wrapped around you
    by everyone who is touched by your story. Blessings!

  72. Kelly Beitler says:

    I am truly sorry for your loss. Say a prayer each time you think of Conan. He is watching over you and your family. Please continue to help heal others as he would want you fight for being healthy.

  73. Katrina says:

    So sorry… Beautiful boy and tribute…

  74. Michael says:

    I am so sorry to learn of Conan passing from this life to the next Dr Osborne…such a beautiful soul!
    What a blessing his sweet being came into your life; just as HE was blessed no doubt, to have been born into your family and have you as a father… He must have been exceedingly proud!
    Like you, I feel loved ones are closer than we realize. May his memories, his passion for life and spirit continue to bless you until we can all be reunited
    God bless,
    As always, I will continue to look forward to hearing your wise words in future medical conferences in which you speak. Your work helps so many…

  75. Rich Gill says:

    Unlimited healing love from above to you and Conan’s circle…

  76. Andrea Dee says:

    Been keeping you and your family in my prayers throughout this week, Dr. O, and will continue to.

  77. Idy Sherer says:

    I witnessed my parents grief when my twin brother died at 25. They have been gone many years and while i know that their lives went on, a small part of them never truly got over the loss.
    I will keep you and your family in my prayers. I am truly so very sorry.
    Always remember the gift your son was and the love you shared.

  78. Galina Williams says:

    So sorry for your loss. Our prayers are with you and your family.

  79. Randi Spurgeon says:

    Very Dearest Dr. Osborne and family,
    There are no words that can ease your pain, sorrow and suffering from the terrible loss of your very precious son but please know that you are never a burden and that we all care deeply and grieve with you. Thank you so much for letting us pray for you and I just pray that God will hold you in His loving, caring arms and surround you with His comfort, healing and strength during the difficult times ahead. You are dearly loved!
    United States Coast Guard mama for Jesus

  80. Cole & Sheri Hadfield says:

    Our thoughts are with you and your family. ❤

  81. Kuldeep Sidhu says:

    Thanks for sharing Conan’s life with us . May God bless u and your family with the peace within.

  82. Althemese Bailey says:

    Dr. Osborne, God’s peace and comfort be with you and your family.

  83. Barbara Gilbreath says:

    Beautiful tribute to you son! May God grant you and your family peace that passes all understanding.

  84. Theo says:

    Thanks very much for sharing your grief, and I pray that healing comes to you and Conan’s family. RIP

  85. Lori kane says:

    I’m soooo sorry for you and your family. I will keep you all in my prayers. 🙏❤️

  86. Uma says:

    May God give you and your family the strength to bear the pain. Our prayers are with you.

  87. rosie says:

    TODAY IS THE ANNIVERSARY OF MY SISTER LOSING HER 22 YR. OLD SON, HE WAS HER FIRST BORN, THEN SHE LOST HER LAST AND 3RD SON…THEY ARE PRECIOUS FOREVER BEYOND WORDS…IT IS A HEARTACHE ONE CAN’T PUT INTO WORDS…I
    WAS LIKE THEIR SISTER BECAUSE WE WERE CLOSE IN AGE, AND I HAD TO TRY AND HELP MY SISTER GO ON…BUT YES THE HEAVENLY FATHER I SAW WAS HELPING HER TO GO ON AND SHE SAID IT TOO…WE WILL PRAY THAT YOU ARE COMFORTED AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE THROUGH THIS…I AM SO VERY SORRY…HE IS A HANDSOME BOY, AND ALL YOUR FAMILY. I KNOW IT ISN’T THE SAME, BUT HE WILL ALWAYS BE WITH EACH OF YOU AND ONE DAY YOU WILL BE TOGETHER…BLESSINGS TO ALL OF YOUR FAMILY EACH AND EVERY DAY…

  88. Marty says:

    May our Lord God give you & your family peace & comfort at this most difficult time. Thank you for sharing the beautiful life of your son.

  89. Angie says:

    So sorry for your loss! Prayers for your sweet family.

  90. Joann says:

    Dear Dr.Osborne and family,
    You have my deepesy sympathy, and I will be praying for you all.
    Your tender loving words and pictures of your son brings me to tears.

  91. Joann Johnson says:

    Dear Dr.Osborne and family,
    You have my deepesy sympathy, and I will be praying for you all.
    Your tender loving words and pictures of your son brings me to tears.

  92. Romy B says:

    Dear Dr Osborne , my husband died suddenly on the same day as your son Conan . My three children and myself are devastated. The loss of your son must almost be unbearable for you and your family . A family friend read a poem by Henry Scott -Holland at my husband’s funeral service two days ago called Death is Nothing at All . It gave us some comfort and it may do the same for you and your family . Yours in shared grief Romy B xxxxx

  93. Dr. Mark Butterfield says:

    Dear Dr. Osborne ~
    I am so saddened to hear of your losses. My heart goes out to you. Thank you for sharing a glimpse of Conan’s life with us, and allowing that expression of your grief as well. Love bless all your family. I’m so happy for the very strong relationships you all have, and the love Conan was blessed to find as well.

  94. Jackie Sweeney says:

    Dr O,
    So sorry for your loss….please take some comfort in knowing that the short life your son enjoyed was fulfilling and he had a loving family to share it with. Condolences to you and your family.

  95. Roger Mallie says:

    Dear Dr. Osborne , I have two boys and both in their early 40’s. I could not even contemplate bearing such pain if I lost one of them. My sincere thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family. My prayer is that God will give you a peace and a hope during this time reflection on Conan……May God Richly bless you and your family.

  96. My heart is aching for you & your family. I’m so sorry you have joined the club no one wants to enter…parents who have lost a child. When our son Austin Jacob, age 26, died 10 months ago, our friend Jim asked us the same question his Dad asked him when his son Jake died at age 21…If God had told you when he was born that you would only have him for this many years would you have still wanted him? Of course our answer was a resounding Yes, with no question or hesitation! I would never have wanted to give up even a minute of the time we did have with our precious son! I can tell the abundant love you shared with your son thru the beautiful tribute you’ve shared…we’re blessed to have loved so much that it is extremely painful to lose them! There are no words to ease your pain…sending love & strength to you & your family. 💕

  97. Carol Stevens says:

    Dear Dr. Osborne & Family……
    Words cannot express the feelings flowing through me, I just finished reading your beautiful memorial tribute to Conan. I am a mother of two grown sons, and although I cannot begin to contemplate what you must be experiencing, I know your pain is so real, Everything he was in Life will bless you and yours forever. You are in my prayers. May Conan rest in Heavenly Peace……🙏❤️🙏

  98. Jeannie says:

    Im so sorry for your loss. I know it’s devistating. Words can’t express how we feel when we lose a child. I lost my 28 year old daughter to lupus, seven yrs. ago this past July, 2018. It still doesn’t feel that long ago. Still hurts, but somehow we find strength to move forward, in time. It took me awhile. I didn’t want anyone asking me how I was either, because the tears would flow. I couldn’t go anywhere, to many reminders of places we’d been and enjoyed. I’m praying for you and your family and God give you peace and comfort. Sharing in your grief. God bless you ❤️

  99. Lara says:

    A very beautiful tribute to your son Conan! May you and your family receivs great peace, comfort and even joy at this most difficult season of your lives. Much love and prayers from Nigeria

  100. Suzanne Gascoyne, Ph.D. says:

    I am so sorry for your devastating loss.

  101. Max says:

    Touched to flowing tears & more than a few uncontrollable sobs by your magnificent tribute to precious Conan, along with opening up about your own grief, I’m also moved to awe that you have so much, indeed, SO VERY MUCH to be thankful for!!
    Praying for you & yours, please let me share this lyric from a song I wrote…
    “& if you happen to be one of the beautiful brokenhearted, don’t be sad, you’ve just started to let Love flow more easily through you!”

  102. Nicoletta amendolau says:

    May God give you the strength to carry on.

  103. Marian curry says:

    In my thoughts and in my heart I will pray for you and your family Conan will take care of his loved ones as they have taken care of him God Bless
    Sending my love Marian

  104. Tatyana Gulludag says:

    We are all very sorry and sad to hear this. Our prayers are with you, Dr Osborn.
    I cannot even imagine. Wish you lots of strength during these tough times. Your children are beautiful and you need to be strong for them.
    Please send my condolences to your wife.

  105. Christina Pristas says:

    Dr Osborne – such a beautiful tribute to your precious Conan. He is with you still in spirit and certainly most touched with your eternal love for him. Here is the Story of the Dragonfly that was shared with me, when my Dad transitioned. Hope this will bring comfort to you, your family and all your followers:
    Down below the surface of a quiet pond lived a little colony of water bugs. They were a happy colony, living far away from the sun. For many months they were very busy, scurrying over the soft mud on the bottom of the pond. They did notice that every once in a while one of their colony seemed to lose interest in going about with its friends. Clinging to the stem of a pond lily, it gradually moved out of sight and was seen no more.
    “Look!” said one of the water bugs to another. “One of our colony is climbing up the lily stalk. Where do you suppose she is going?” Up, up, up it went slowly. Even as they watched, the water bug disappeared from sight. Its friends waited and waited but it didn’t return. “That’s funny!” said one water bug to another. “Wasn’t she happy here?” asked a second water bug. “Where do you suppose she went?” wondered a third. No one had an answer. They were greatly puzzled.
    Finally one of the water bugs, a leader in the colony, gathered its friends together. “I have an idea. The next one of us who climbs up the lily stalk must promise to come back and tell us where he or she went and why.” “We promise.” They said solemnly.
    One spring day, not long after the very water bug who had suggested the plan found himself climbing up the lily stalk. Up, up, up he went. Before he knew what was happening, he had broken through the surface of the water, and fallen onto the broad, green lily pad above.
    When he awoke, he looked about with surprise. He couldn’t believe what he saw. A startling change had come to his old body. His movement revealed four silver wings and a long tail. Even as he struggled, he felt an impulse to move his wings. The warmth of the sun soon dried the moisture from the new body. He moved his wings again and suddenly found himself up above the water. He had become a dragonfly.
    Swooping and dipping in great curves, he flew through the air. He felt exhilarated in the new atmosphere. By and by, the new dragonfly lighted happily on a lily pad to rest. Then it was that he chanced to look below to the bottom of the pond. Why, he was right above his old friends, the water bugs! There they were, scurrying about, just as he had been doing some time before. Then the dragonfly remembered the promise: “The next one of us who climbs up the lily stalk will come back and tell where he or she went and why.”
    Without thinking, the dragonfly darted down. Suddenly he hit the surface of the water and bounced away. Now that he was a dragonfly, he could no longer go into the water. “I can’t return!” he said in dismay. “At least I tried, but I can’t keep my promise. Even if I could go back, not one of the water bugs would know me in my new body. I guess I’ll just have to wait until they become dragonflies too. Then they’ll understand what happened to me, and where I went.
    And the dragonfly winged off happily into its wonderful new world of sun and air.”

  106. Nancy Magyer says:

    Sending love and a virtual envelope of hugs to you, your family and everyone whose life Conan touched. You all are so lucky to have shared his love. No doubt your future will be influenced by the gifts he brought to your lives. Please accept my sincerest condolences.

  107. Debbie Jackson says:

    There is no greater loss than the loss of a beloved child. My late husband lost a 14 year old grandchild to Ewings Sarcoma before we married so your story touched me deeply. You have a ton of Gluten Free Warriors sending their strength and prayers to you and your family.

  108. Kim Soper says:

    My deepest condolences to you and your family. Conan is home with the Lord, our father. Short as his life was on earth, he had a wonderful life with a wonderful, loving family. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Thank you for sharing.

  109. HELENA HINES says:

    Dear Dr Peter
    Thankyou for sharing your precious story of Conan: Look, it has created and drawn love from so many hearts. Thankyou for carrying on with your wonderful work even when you haven’t felt like it.
    May your whole family know yourselves surrounded and born up in the strong arms of the Love you already know, that same love you gave your son.

  110. Leslie Ullman says:

    I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my prayers.

  111. I am so sorry for your loss! I know this pain intimately. I lost my 24 year old son Zachary almost 2 years ago to an accident. If you need someone to listen, or to talk to, send me a note and we can connect.

  112. Linda Schocklin says:

    My tears are for your broken heart and the loss of your son. I to lost my middle son little over a year ago in a car accident. It’s so hard to deal but I am still here so we have to go on. I am now just getting able to talk about it. May god bless you and may our sons rest in peace. He sounded like a very special young man. Take care and thank you for all you do for us and our health!

  113. Dear Peter,

    I am both deeply moved and appreciative by your sharing your and your family’s grievous loss. The waves of shock and sorrow are felt around the world as your impact has global reach. As we pray for your peace that passes understanding, we are assured that you will be reunited with your loves for an eternity while this sojourn is a blip on the time screen. Be that as it may, I join fellow benefactors of your work in asking you to continue bringing much needed integrity and truth to the seeking community, please. May God bless you and yours in ways that His favor is apparent.

  114. Rebecca Staggers says:

    OH Dr. Osborne, our Hearts are Broken💔. We LOVE YOU So Much my sweet friend. We are lifting you & your precious wife & boys up in Prayer🙏🏻 . May the Dear Lord renew your strength throughout each & everyday.

  115. Dear Peter

    I am both saddened about the loss of your precious Conan and grateful that you would share your pain and grief with your supporters. The wave of shock and sorrow traversed the globe for your impact and influence are global.

    As we pray for the peace that passes understanding for you and your family, and God’s ongoing favor, may you be reminded that you each will reunite with your loves for an eternity. Though that sounds like a platitude, another reminder; the brief sojourn we have here as participants in God’s overall plan.

    For this reason I join other supporters in asking you to please continue bringing your passion, integrity and actual scientific truths to those of us who need it most. My deep condolences.

  116. Melody says:

    I feel the experience of loss of a loved one teaches us how great and deep our love can be , and not to take for granted this love and these special relationships !
    May you feel peace and comfort,and a shower of gifts and blessings to strengthen you in your journey in healing from the Grief!

    May all who experience this loss be lifted by angels !

    From one who has experience this intense love and loss!
    Melody

  117. Betty J says:

    I pray that God’s peace will be with you and your family. In His time, special memories will give you comfort.

  118. Linda Osmond says:

    There will never be words enough to comfort a parent’s grieving heart, unless God speaks them directly to you. Having lost 3 babies, this has been my experience. I am praying for your family to receive the comfort and love directly from your always good heavenly Father. I am so very sorry for your loss. <3

  119. Araceli says:

    Dr. Peter Osborne my family and I are very sorry for your loss , you and your beautiful family will be in our prayers . God will give you the strengh to go through .

  120. Claudia K. says:

    I am so very sorry for your loss. There are no words that I can add since the pain you feel goes so unbelievably deep. You described the love you feel and felt for your son Conan so beautifully.
    I hope that you, your family, and close friends can give each other the support you all need to get through this incredibly difficult time.

  121. Chris says:

    Dr Osborne and family, I am so sorry for your loss. I was brought to tears by your memories. Thanks for sharing them with us. I believe their is no greater loss by which man can suffer than losing a child. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family in this time of grief.

  122. Laura says:

    I feel selfish, after reading this, that I’m still mourning the loss of my 94 year-old mother in June.

    I am MORE sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing and putting things in perspective for me. Sending peace to your entire family. 🙏

  123. Alyssa Hargan says:

    I am saddened to hear of your loss. I can’t imagine how painful this is for you, but thank you for sharing this glimpse into his life and yours. I will be praying for you and your family.

  124. Sandra Dech says:

    What a beautiful tribute to your son. My deepest and heartfelt sympathy to you and your family. My prayers are with you. God bless you all.

  125. Emily Zola says:

    Dear Dr. Osborne,

    As you go through life,
    When you stop and look behind you,
    May the times that you’ve been happy,
    FAR outnumber the times when Fate has been unkind.
    And may much more happiness be coming your way,
    On the journey yet to be.

    Please accept my deepest sympathy in the loss of your beloved son, Conan.

  126. Connie says:

    Dr. Osborne, life has so many experiences, good and sad. Your love for your family, your son…you genuinely gave him a good, “wonderful life”…although, sad, not long enough. You were on and at at his side his whole life. There is nothing more fulfilling than being loved and respected. You have “wonderful” memories and must be so proud of this young man you brought into this world. I have not lost a child and is far from my understanding how a parent moves on. I am sure he is at your side every day in spirit. Your raised a “wonderful” son and was a nice experience for me that your shared pictures of your son’s wonderful life. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

  127. Karen says:

    What a privilege to learn more about Conad and the love you so deeply shared. Will hold you and your entire family in my thoughts and prayers are you learn your ‘new normal.”

  128. Carol says:

    Dr. Osborne, I’m so, so sorry. What an incredible loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

  129. Vera says:

    Want to add heartfelt sympathy. Our son died at age 22 from HIV after receiving contaminated blood products so can enter into your grief. Thanks for expressing your feelings of loss at a time when you are hurting so intensely. What a beautiful tribute to a special son!

  130. Susan C says:

    My deepest condolences to you and your family. Thank you for sharing your son Conan’s life with us. I could not help tearing up reading such a beautiful tribute to your son! Praying for our Lord to bring you comfort and peace during this time. Philippians 4:7 – And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

  131. Rubi & Miguel says:

    Dr. Osborne, we are so sorry for your loss. Our deepest sympathies go out to you and your family.

  132. Heather says:

    Dear Dr. Osborne, hearing about your loss of your precious son has brought me to tears. My heart goes out to you and your family. I will be praying for you. I pray the Lord will bring you comfort and rest.

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