I totally hear what you’re saying. I too am a mother and a grandmother who has always looked out for everyone else but myself. That seems to be the most frustrating thing. I don’t know if this is an issue for you but sometimes we just have to find time for ourselves to do what we need to do in order to make ourselves better. Every time I turn around (having grown children myself and when they were growing up) someone always needed something. Even when all I could do was to crawl around because I was so exhausted or dizzy, I would just put up a front, being a mom, and keep pushing forward. We just have to learn that it is ok to let people know we have to balance our day, in order to get through it. My children too have issues with gluten/leaky gut, but since my husband made it out to be a joke (at the beginning when I discovered the gluten) now my children don’t take it seriously, even though I see the same symptoms they are having that I had at their age. It is so sad to watch, when they won’t listen to me. I don’t want any of them to get as bad as I am. I know how hard it is to deal with all of these issues, when u still have children you are caring for, at home. As they get older, it will get easier, but it is still tiring trying to get through day to day when you are responsible for caring for other people and trying to get yourself better. Trying to get ourselves better takes 24/7 commitment. We need to take a deep breath, clear our heads and take a minute at a time, if that is what it takes to get us through this. Stress is a major culprit for not being able to totally heal, in any illness, especially this one.
I am so glad to hear that you have support from your children (even though as a mother we don’t want to put that burden onto them). I am so glad they enjoy your gluten free cooking. It is so much healthier for them and they will thank you later in life. Even if our husbands don’t understand this or don’t support us all the way, we still have to focus on ourselves. As I was always told, if you don’t take care of yourself, then you won’t be around to help anyone else. That is so true. It has taken me so many years to start taking care of myself.
I hope that it will get easier for you (with 6 children still home) and that you will be able to recover fully from this beast (or keep it under control).
Have a great afternoon and thank you again for everything.